Chapter 8, Part 1
Before and After Life-Defining Events
Brief forward: With only two episodes left in the foundational cycles of Sacred Warrior Space Podcast, I feel it’s important to finally talk about some more personal things as examples. In no way does what I reveal translate to my harboring any grudges or anger towards anyone who may have been guilty in treating me poorly in the past 8 years give or take. In fact, I have taught (and stand by) living the Golden Rule. This includes treating others the way you want to be treated as-well-as NOT treating others the ways you don’t want to be treated. I AM sincerely grateful for all those people who have taught me exactly how to not behave. I value you as teachers and lesson givers for how else would I know these experiences so deeply otherwise? Someone had to do the cutting and so, I thank you from the bottom of my heart for your hard knox lessons.
Life Defining Events
For the last quarter century or more, I’ve stood for World Peace. Meaning: I’ve been actively trying to do something about it. In the beginning of the new millennium, I first approached it from a more creative way by making various Teach Peace designs and slogans; printing on clothing, bags, bumper stickers and a huge variety of other items, (I’ve built and maintained websites since the nineties).
The more resistance I surprisingly felt, the more I continued to educate myself - as I did beginning in the mid and last half of the 1990s. Why would anyone be opposed to World Peace? It never made sense to me why anyone would oppose living in harmony and peace.
The more ‘educated’ I got, the more my idealistic perspectives became solidified as beliefs structures through my living experiences, in direct opposition to what the machine expected me to become. Just call me divergent, if you want. And so, the more action-oriented period of my adult life ensued.
It’s fairly logical that my next period of time was enveloped with the physical actions of getting involved in politics; not realizing of course, just how rotten to the core it was; I was thinking (and taking actions) more from that ‘idealistic point of view’, that perhaps we actually could change the system from within, if there was enough of ‘us all united for the greater good of all’, etc. etc. etc.
I walked my talk, did my homework and campaigned while supporting the candidates I believed could help make changes that supported We The People: from the presidential election all the way down to our local community elections for the Sheriff's Office and County Council elections during those very informative years. This period of time and experiences taught me a lot in my thirties, followed by more and more education in general and across the board both formal and informal.
I mention these things to bring about a point that you may think you know someone; but until you’ve walked a mile in their shoes, I promise you, you don’t know/know them. Remember to judge not and stop throwing those proverbial rocks (name-calling) at others. It’s NOT your job to tell (or expect) anyone else to follow what you think is the right path.
The paths to the dual events of The Procession of the Equinoxes and subsequent (long awaited) Ascension/Quantum Leap of humanity, are not ‘one size fits all’ paths. In fact, every path is unique and customized for your greatest potential of personal growth while you still have the veil of corrupted frequencies masking what your Soul knows already.
Ok, with that all being said, let’s get to the deeper, and more intense stuff.
Our Reality Before the Shift
Governments and Religions are (only) two great examples of slave control systems. If you don’t understand this yet, then perhaps you’re reading the wrong article or listening to the wrong podcast. Better yet, you’re probably exactly where you need to be, wink wink ;)
Please don’t confuse religion with Spirituality!
That’s where a lot of people get stuck and can’t seem to open their hearts and realign their thinking minds (literally deprogramming yourselves) beyond what was handed to them and told to them all throughout their lives by social conditioning and programming - which were all set up as literal mind-controlling systems of slavery and manipulation through your beliefs.
[Don’t you have the right to figure out your own beliefs and not be expected to simply believe something because you were told it’s true… but rather, find that truth and most importantly, experience that truth for yourselves? I digress.]
In the former, (religion) you are cultivated to believe something you are told; belief systems in place (dogmas, doctrine and covenants, etc.) that are passed down to you from one generation to the next. Some will try to shame you into believing as you are told, using ‘group think’ and other cultish behaviors to get you to conform and 'help others' hear what you tell them is true; or else you somehow don’t belong or you’re not doing the work their god wants you to do. Can you see yet, which god you are actually serving?
It’s a psychological tactic of manipulation using guilt, shame and fear. Some religions will actually punish you if you stray. Some absolutely do preach violence while others say their way is the only way. I won’t even get into the pure greed and abuses committed in the name of religious beliefs over centuries past.
The latter, Spirituality, is the actual personal experience of knowing and walking with your spirit within your human body. It’s the maturity of the ego finally understanding its originally intended role and that it’s not really supposed to be in charge... followed by the humbled act of ego/personality inviting your (holy) spirit (connected to the true God/Creator/Source of all), into your life through your heart and physical body, to come together with who you perceive as you (the ego personality) so you can experience both ordinary and non-ordinary experiences while in your human vessel, at the same time.
It’s a personal experience and requires NO ‘religious dogma’ in order for you to know and personally experience God from your Soul, IN YOU, AS YOU! It’s a Oneness you know and when you know, you just know!
Personally, Jesus the Christ is how I found my way OUT of religion all together! That’s another story for another day. However, it's important to note that HIS teachings were more sacred than the church will ever tell you. Do you really think the Catholic and Christian churches got so rich and powerful by teaching the truth of Jesus? Take the programs passed down to you and think about why you think he was murdered? He and his teachings were considered very dangerous!
If everyone started meditating and using their personal energy fields of sacred geometry connected to the grid systems, this inverted grid system would collapse immediately! The controllers don’t want that, do they?!
To Each, Their Own
If I were to simplify my personal life and break it down into only 2 parts, it’s very clear: Before my first-born son died when he was 30, and after. It’s actually a no-brainer. Everything changes when you lose a child. It’s the other ‘club’ that nobody wants to be in.
It’s not about the religious and spiritual parts for me, as some may have guessed, because my spiritual experiences have been true all of my life. I was always divergent from the religious programs and I was never alone without my guiding Spirit waiting patiently for my ego to grow up, so to speak.
My Soul was tending to my ego/personality as it’s very own garden of light; like a parent does for their child. And every child gets to make their own ‘adult’ decisions at some point. I call this your Divine Choice Point: You either go back on a loop of learning or you get on the spiral up - and the spiral up requires you to lighten your load.
As part of my healing, I was guided to start sharing the process on my YouTube channel around 9-10 months after my son died. The videos were spiritual slam poetry initially; and that enabled me to begin using my voice verbally, and not just from behind a keyboard. Now I was showing up visually and authentically sharing my pain as part of my healing and therapeutic processes.
Like I said, it was my process of healing.
My growth rate was unbelievable to me! I was stunned at the support I received immediately and it continued to grow at what felt like an accelerated rate. I started to educate myself on monetization and set some goals for this thing that was taking off! It gave me some hope for something to believe in again.
I was trying to make sense of my life after the rug was pulled out without any warnings or signs and I did indeed begin to feel hopeful again. The support I received helped me see I could actually use my pain to help others while I healed through this horrible trauma. It was beautiful and quite astonishing to live through; but not all was peaches and roses. Not everyone (most of my old circles) could understand. (How could they?)
Before this most personal life-defining event, I was no stranger to writing. I was teaching and guiding through my spiritual articles and my blog posts were being picked up by much larger groups who made them more public. I know that I was contributing to the greater cause of World Peace through personal spiritual empowerment and development. Then suddenly out of nowhere, that all came to a complete stop on March 23, 2018, when my son James died and my world turned back and white, instantly!
When the initial period of mourning should have been settling in or calming down a little, I got hit with a second gut punch 11 days after he died and after his funeral service - when I found out more details surrounding the night he died that had been deliberately held back from me!
I'm not going to lie, I was so angry I wanted to die too! I never felt this kind of anger in my life… Nor do I ever want to feel it again! It’s raw energetic FUEL and if that existed, then so too, does its opposing force. AND THAT, is a MASTER KEY right there! And that was what I began seeking. To learn this crucial balancing act by way of living and experiencing it for myself so the unconditional love energy fuel would be crystal clear and known to me.
